Quietly

Just when I was in a sentimental mood, while I thought I could feel sorry for myself, I realise that there's no time for my silly moody love problems...

Last night I turned to a friend talking about my silly problems. I eventually realize that my problems weren't that big compared to hers. Her life is drastically changing, because someone in her family is seriously sick. She's uncertain about the road ahead, and I have never been there to listen to her problems and situation.

At this moment I can only feel guilt. And I dunno why, but I'm listening to Harlem's quietly, and it's soothing. I promised myself that I would spend more time on people who deserve my time. I promised myself I would spend less time with people who are not certain that they really want my time :X. I promised myself.. tomorrow on... i'll try to walk the better path, the one I should have walked on long before today....

For those who wonder

Hey all,

I'm still around. It's just that I've been busy with work, life, partying, gaming, going out, and that blogging is not one of my priorities anymore, but through all the travelling, and partying etc, I seem to have changed a little. And I probably want to rethink of everything eventually. It's time to grab my laptop and post some entries again I guess.

Past couple of months have been hectic. Not exactly hectic, but lot of things have changed. Maybe i'll post about it soon :).

No time for being sentimental

Things which matters most must never be at mercy of things which matters least
--Geothe

Sometimes things just go different than we expected. And even when they seem to be within your grasp it can be gone within a second. Somethings seem so fragile, especially human relations.

You might think that true friendships will last forever, but in order to do so, you need to show that you have been a true friend, and continue to do so. Without these actions even the best friendships will fade away.

Some of us might think that true love will last forever. And maybe that's true at too, but even true love need to be shown from time to time. And we all seem to perceive things in different way.

I use to think that if things start from the heart, that all things will eventually shine through. And although I still believe that matters what you carry in your heart, maybe without speaking or really showing it, counts more than superficial acts and words, that carries values.

I gradually realize that carrying things in the heart is not enough for some people. And as a guy I learned to act different from I think. Especially on more personal and emotional matters. Maybe it's mainly because of the fact that I don't know how to handle with these things, but as I said, I sometimes choose to ignore it, or showing things the other way around. And somehow, it seems to be picked up the wrong way. Even though that I meant it totally different in my heart, this is not sensed. All people see and judge are things they can see with their eyes. You might think that someone who has been knowing u for months, will gradually get to know you better, but eventually u will see the truth, and truth is, you are totally misunderstood.

Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are good is like expecting the bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian.

I cracked up when i saw this quote. Anyway, not that I truly believe I'm good, but there times I did think I meant it the good way, but has been misunderstood.

Then again, there's not much else I can do. I just need learn to act according to my heart and mind, and hope that my true intentions will be read the right way. I just need to continue to follow my path of principles, and believe what is right and true. And eventually, it will always shine through :). That's what I believe, and will always be believing. That's a principle in life that will never change, and will always can hold on to.

Like Alphonse Elric would say:
Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is alchemy's First Law of Equivalent Exchange. In those days, we really believed that to be the world's one, and only, truth.

Vampire? o.O

You Are A Vampire

You have a real thirst for bliss, and you consider yourself a true hedonist. And you're not afraid to walk alone in life, if it means getting what you truly crave. You truly enjoy entrancing people. Not to mention the ensuing pleasures of the flesh. Your tastes have been called decadent and bizarre. You usually give in to your temptations, no matter how primal Your greatest power: Your flawless ability to seduce and charm Your greatest weakness: Human flesh You play well with: Werewolves

What Kind of Monster Are You?

Lol this is actually quite right

New start!

I got enough of thinking i'm the stable, rational guy, who is dependable, serious, wise and bla bla bla.
I'm still not that kinda person.. It's time for me to play play and play some more :P. Life is a adventure~ Life is waiting... Here I come, life *hugs life*.

For those who have no idea what i'm talking about. Sorry for wasting your time by making u all reading this :X

Unconditionally

Hi all,

Haven't blog for a long time. And I realise, I only blog again, because i'm in a somewhat sentimental situation again.

I realised that I liked someone very much, and was willing to do lot of things for her. But not unconditionally. I only did things on the condition that she would like me back. Untill today i'm not 100% if she ever did. Even though she hinted it a 1000 times, but i'll still not know.

Not only because i'm ignorant, but because she is in a tough situation is not willing to make that decision. At least that's what she told me.

In the passed I tried to be there for her, and I realised that wasn't totally without conditions. I liked her.. and i wanted her to like me back.

Now I should try to like her, and be there for her, without having her.

You might think that i live in a dreamworld, but I truely believe that's what I really want for now. It might be a dream only.. but it's a dream i would like to have, for now...

Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei

Not so long ago, I started to pick up on a new anime. It's called Sayornara Zetsubou Sensai (bye bye, teacher of despair). This anime cracked me up.

The plot is about a teacher who always think in negative terms, but will meet a student that is not capable of seeing things negatively, but will only be able to see things in a positive way.

Not only is this all brought in a hilarious way, but lots of small details in the anime actually makes it kind of fun. For example how all names are composed. The teacher's name is actually suppose to be ito shiki nozomu (hope). But when you take put the first two chars together, it the name will change into zetsubou, which means despair. And there's a girl called Meru (that's how japanese people speak out mail). Meru is the girl that only communicates with others thru text messages. Actually all the characters have a funny name.

Anyway, i would definitely recommend this anime to any1 who is reading this. Not only does it display that all negatives can be brought into a positive light (in a very extreme way), but it also tells us that we should never think thinks too extremes :).